fuck.
i hate being sick.
i hate it.
you know those toys, the stuffed monkey holding the two cymbols and smashing them together?
my head feels like it's between those two cymbols.
and my throat.
whenever i swallow, it's like i'm downing nails too.
i feel like i could puke at any moment.
i woke up this morning with sweat actually pouring down my neck and stomach.
i felt like shittt.
i was also wearing my BR sweatpants and a heavy shirt, so i quickly swapped those in for BR shorts and a tank top.
i have BR pride.
but then when i woke up at like . . 12:30, i couldn't feel my legs i was so cold.
so i changed back into my pants and heavy shirt.
i attempted to eat, and actually got a banana and a bagel down.
now they both want to come back up, but whatever.
my head is calming down a bit, but i still have a headache.
and, in short, i wish i could pull a james and have edward rip out my throat.
yeah, that wasn't funny.
i'm so sick, that when i woke up at 12:30, i actually read the atlas.
the flipping ATLAS.
it looked interesting.
and now i know some of the most dangerous creatures in the ocean.
i have a weird atlas.
so i'm going to go back to sleep now . . possibly.
actually, the weekenders are on, so i think i might watch that.
OR HARRY POTTER.
either one.
now my sister is with her friend, and being loud.
buhbye. :]
Monday, April 27, 2009
Saturday, April 25, 2009
painted whore. put on some more.
So this is what it's come to ?
Alright, I'll accept it.
Bitch.
You loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee her ?
Okk,
HAVE FUN
Good luck.
Lipstick.
Blush brush.
I don't know what you see in her.
FAKKEEE.
Thats what I see.
What a painted whore.
I wanna leave.
Just walk out.
Pleaseee.
You want me ?
Where were you?
Not near me, thats right.
Please don't lie to me.
If this is a game to you, you're pretty fcuking sick.
My heart isnt' a toy, it's not to be messed around with.
So don't.
Go find your painted whore.
and leave me alone.
Alright, I'll accept it.
Bitch.
You loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee her ?
Okk,
HAVE FUN
Good luck.
Lipstick.
Blush brush.
I don't know what you see in her.
FAKKEEE.
Thats what I see.
What a painted whore.
I wanna leave.
Just walk out.
Pleaseee.
You want me ?
Where were you?
Not near me, thats right.
Please don't lie to me.
If this is a game to you, you're pretty fcuking sick.
My heart isnt' a toy, it's not to be messed around with.
So don't.
Go find your painted whore.
and leave me alone.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
I don't know what to do.
i love you.
and i know it.
but then theres that other thing.
it follows me wherever i go, and no matter what, it won't leave.
i need you to fill the space in my heart, but i know you want.
it's her you want.
not me.
never me.
i'm not perfect, i've accepted that.
but you could atleast try to act like you care.
and i know that i'm completely cruel.
but what am i supposed to do.
i guess i'm overwhelmed.
i have no one to talk to, because no matter what . .
no one understands.
none of my friends have gone through this.
I'm Alone.
and i know it.
but then theres that other thing.
it follows me wherever i go, and no matter what, it won't leave.
i need you to fill the space in my heart, but i know you want.
it's her you want.
not me.
never me.
i'm not perfect, i've accepted that.
but you could atleast try to act like you care.
and i know that i'm completely cruel.
but what am i supposed to do.
i guess i'm overwhelmed.
i have no one to talk to, because no matter what . .
no one understands.
none of my friends have gone through this.
I'm Alone.
First Blog - Here I go . .
Heeeeeey there.
My name is Kaisie Ellen.
This is my first blog, so I have no idea what to say . .
So I'm just winging it.
My future blogs shall get better. :]
Just wanted to start one up, cause all my friends seem to have them. xD
My name is Kaisie Ellen.
This is my first blog, so I have no idea what to say . .
So I'm just winging it.
My future blogs shall get better. :]
Just wanted to start one up, cause all my friends seem to have them. xD
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